My best friend?
Journal Entry: Thu Jan 3, 2008, 10:11 PM
- Mood:
Cheerful - Listening to: Candyman!
- Reading: Exactly what I'm typing.
- Watching: This computer screen!
- Playing: on the compy?
- Eating: nothing
- Drinking: WATER!
You were my very best friend.
You enabled me to feel........
perfect.
Well, not perfect.
For I was much too far away from perfection.
However.
With your help, I was closer every day.
You helped me feel strong.
With your guidance, I persevered.
I had the strength and willpower.
Nobody else.
I would sit alone outside.
Waves of worthlessness rushed over me.
I couldn't see.
You put your arm around me.
You said, Just a little bit more, and you'll feel so much better
When I fell down, you picked me up.
Well, most of the time.
Sometimes, you would forget.
I would lie there, for awhile.
I would always feel empty.
No feelings. No thoughts.
I was lifeless.
Mechanically walking through my life.
To be honest, I was the only one who liked you.
You were my guidance.
I followed you, and although I'd hate to admit it.
I feared you.
My friends hated you.
But, you convinced me that they weren't even my friends anyway.
So that didn't really matter.
You said they would never understand.
The ones who loved me.
They hated you.
They spit out your name with disgust and hatred.
But I always defended you!
And yet, you seemed to hate me sometimes.
You said I was worthless. I had no meaning.
I was imperfect.
You knew my greatest fears, and you used them again me.
But you said, that with your help.
I could improve.
That you were the only one who could make me special.
I believed you.
I lied.
Many times.
I did everything in power to keep you around.
I made excuses.
You controlled my every move.
You controlled my every thought.
You had control of my life.
You loved it, I thought I did too.
Others tried to make you go away........
forever.
I was scared.
You would never leave me.
Would you?
They were wrong of course.
I mean,honestly, did they even know anything?
How could I listen to THEM.
They told me lies.
You were perfectly honest with me.
Sometimes................ the truth hurts.
You almost took away my life.
I don't know why you did that.
I thought you were my friend?
You tried to kill me.
Why?
I thought you were there to help me?
Was it a sacrifice of some sort?
Did you really have the power to kill me?
Did I even care?
I'm not quite sure.
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Today, as I write.
Your less controlling.
But your still there.
Your still in my head, my friend.
And to be honest.................... I miss you.
I wish we could be friends again.
I miss you.
But my lies don't work anymore.
I can't keep you around.
There is no way around it.
You keep trying so hard to see me.
I appreciate that.
But you always get in trouble.
You always get caught.
I know your angry with me.
You keep saying how worthless and imperfect I am.
But I can't give in to you.
As much as I want to, I can't.
There is no crack in the wall.
Nothing for you slip in through.
I can still hear your voice from behind the wall.
You are very stubborn.
This friendship isn't completely over though.
We can still correspond, but,
I don't know if I will ever see you again.
Devious Comments
this letter from a friend on the computer, did what it told me to, and
within a week, everything I had wished came true!! Here's an exact
copy,
this
really
works!!!!
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1. To yourself, say the name of the only guy or girl you wanna be with 3 times!
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2. Think of something you wanna accomplish within the next week and
say it to your self 6 times!!
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3. If you had 1 wish what would it be? say it to yourself 9 times!!!
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4. Think of something that you want to happen between you and that
1special person and say it to your self 12 times!!!
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5. Now, heres the hard part! Pick only 1 of these wishes and as you
scroll down focus and concentrate on it and think on nothing else but
that wish.
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Now make one last & final wish about that one wish that you picked.
After reading this, you have 1 hour to send it out to 15 people, and
what you wished for will come true within in one week!
u only get one chance!!!!! Now scroll down and think of your
crush!!!
Keep going
down
Keep going
Keep going
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Keep going
Keep
going
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did you think of your crush? I hope so, that was your last chance. Now
pay very close attention this important message!
Sorry but once read, must be sent. Yes, this is one of those kinda
chain letters that everyone hates. This one has been going since 1864
and if you break this chain, you will pay!!!!!! Remember that
after hearing these stories.
First Example:
Take Barbra Wallace .. She was a pretty lucky girl, up till she got
this same chain letter. She had a crush on th e same kid since
kindergarden. when she got this mail she didn't pay any attention to
it. She just thought, no big deal. And deleted it. The next day her
dad got fired and her mom dies in a car crash. If she would have sent
the letter none of that would have happened and her mom would be
alive.
Second Example:
Try Freddie D. Now Freddie D. was your average nerd. Had glasses, was
short and chubby, was in gifted. All the signs of
your total dork. He also received this letter and sent it to 51
people in the hour. Now, like Barbra , he had a crush on a girl since
3rd grade. The next day after sending the chain the girl confessed her
love for him ever since 3rd grade. Freddie D. finally had the courage
to ask
her out, and of course, she had been waiting to yes to that for years.
They grew up and
married each other to live happily forever.
Third Example:
Now if you couldn't relate to the others, this'll get ya hooked.
Listen to this. A kid named Jordan Johnson was just getting on AOL to
check his mail. He was a quiet kid, not that popular but not a geek
either. he was just normal. He saw he had mail from his friend. It was
this exact letter. Now Jordan Johnsen was a smart kid and he knew what
could happen if he didnt pass it on. He simply pulled a few friends
from his buddy list and sent it along. The next day, about that same
time, he got a phone call. It said he had won the lottery!
then his dad came home and bought him a new bike! His mom bought him
Nintendo64 and play station! His grandmother sent him a new computer,
and his best friend
gave him tickets to the concert he wanted to go to, Kid Rock and Limp Bizkit!
Then he inherited a brand-new tv from his aunt! He was goin' wild! the
next day his secret crush asked him out, and they have been going out
ever since.
Now, you heard the stories. I know which person i'd rather
be, but thats up to you. I wouldn't wanna end up like Barbra but thats
only me. We all want what we cant have but now's ur chance to go out
withthat special somebody ur waiting for. Take it or leave it. If you
send this to-
1 person- you will lose all luck in ur love life..... forever!!!!!
10 people- your crush will say they like you as a friend...... ONLY!!!!!
15 people- your crush will say they like you
20 people- your crush will ask you out!
25 people- your crush will kiss you!!
30 people - Your crush will fall in love with you
35 people or more- All of the above!!
Don't blow it, it's ur
chance to shine! Have everything u wanted, and more! Now, complaining
cus u dont have any
friends. Well theres an answer 4 everything. It's simple, just go in a
chat room, pick some names and send away! but here's the catch.....
you only have 1 hour
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Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!
1-3: you're a bad friend
4-6: you're an ok friend
7-9: you're a good friend
10-& Up: you're a great friend
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